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The Interim: party hardy or act our age??

Author: Alison Bell |
Posted: January 12, 2017, 5:40 pm |

So, what happens after we find out what has been going on, and we route all the control systems and we as a planet say enough is enough? What then? I have listened to two interviews by Kerry Cassidy in the last two days that corroborate Corey Good and David Wilcock’s testimonies, William Thompkins and a few others.



Simon Parkes says in part two something which I think is brilliant, when Kerry asked him if there was anything he really wanted to say, and that was: The thing he worried about the most is what the planet will do in interim between ousting the old regime and coming into our sovereignty. He asks if we will just roll over and accept the next new savior to come along, or will we do what we need to do to finally come into our own on this planet, talk as equals with the people from off the planet and stay our own ground and not sell out for some fancy new toy or benefit?

Here’s a metaphor for you: Are we going to turn into the crazy freshman year college kids and party till we drop once we are free (proving we need governance), or are we going to knuckle down and get something done to further ourselves and our place in the solar system and galaxy??

I loved it. He is very right. What’s it gonna be?

As to the rest of the content in these two videos, it is very confirming of things we all know, but for the first time it is all spoken of very openly, calling a spade a spade, so to speak (and that was juicy fun) And, oh yeah – the Nordics are the new flavor of the month…. I guess. So my bet is they are part of what is going on down in Antarctica. Simon has a very interesting perspective on this, by the way. And from what both of them say, it’s all coming down this year before August – but you know how that is – out part of the plan and it doesn’t happen on both good and negative items.

So we shall have to just wait and see.

EPR: where ARE my shoes??

Author: Alison Bell |
Posted: January 11, 2017, 4:04 pm |

They are right now stuck in some other quantum time line. Which if you really think about it is a mini-Mandela effect. When you say Mandela actually you should think quantum. Billions of time lines all playing out simultaneously now.

How you wind up in different times lines is totally predicated on your choice and what you tell yourself reality really is. Or what you want your reality to be – how daring enough you are to let go of the binary either-or-consciousness (safe) view of reality and begin to embrace Both-and… or all now.

The easiest way to get there is to go into a theta state – the way it is in the moment before you wake up from sleep… that brain state is where change can happen easily. Where you can become an ‘Active Operator’ in the hologram that contains all possibilities in the quantum hologram. It sort of reminds me of the movie with Jet Li called “The One”, except that you don’t have to kill any of your yous – as a matter of fact, the more yous you have, the faster you can spiritually get a handle on this because you cover more variations of experiences simultaneously. Ever wondered how one day you just know something? Well there are billions upon billions of you all simultaneously working on every aspect of experience and this can add up to miraculous “Ah Ha” moments that jump between all the various multiversal selves where, for a moment, a speck of time, the entangled yous all align perfectly and there is transmittal of awareness between all of your selves. Like a mini mind bomb.

This could be considered natural EPR steering.

The concept of ‘steering’ was introduced in 1935 by Schrödinger1 as a generalization of the EPR (Einstein–Podolsky–Rosen) paradox. It has recently been formalized as a quantum-information task with arbitrary bipartite states and measurements 2, for which the existence of entanglement is necessary but not sufficient. From <http://www.nature.com/nphys/journal/v6/n11/abs/nphys1766.html>

EPR is a conjecture in physics stating that entangled particles are connected by a wormhole (or Einstein-Rosen Bridge).[1] The conjecture was proposed by Leonard Susskind and Juan Maldacena in 2013.[2] They proposed that a nontraversable wormhole (Einstein-Rosen bridge) is equivalent to a pair of maximally entangled black holes. EPR refers to quantum entanglement (EPR paradox).

Notice the trinary aspect to this?? (NOT FREAKING BINARY!!!)Keep looking for concepts that are threes – they just work better for the reality that enables you to manifest, transmute and change….things – multidimensionality.

amplituhedronAn amplituhedron is a geometric structure introduced in 2013 by Nima Arkani-Hamed and Jaroslav Trnka. It enables simplified calculation of particle interactions in some quantum field theories From <https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Amplituhedron> This is the shape, coincidentally, of a photon.

tetrahedronThe entire universe is built on the geometric space of the amplituhedron and it has been noted that in its un-stretched state that it is a tetrahedron or two three dimensional triangles stuck together…

The momentary creation of the Einstein-Podolsky-Rosen (notice this as a trinity also, not just Einstein-Rosen…) bridge is a quantum tunnel created by all your entangled yous that allows for instantaneous information sharing – or photonic exchange. This can happen easier than you ‘think’…lols, It really can. The more ‘lucid’ you can be in your everyday living (lucid meaning awake) the more you can see this. Events like missing shoes and things turning up where you KNOW you left them 3 days ago, when everybody around you and you previously saw they were not there, seems to be the beginning awareness of learning this state of being. Free Will and thought and lucid awareness create what and when and where you end up. That is why state of mind is so important. It’s the frequency, the tone, that determines where you pop out.

Of course, the MORE people you have creating/wishing/dreaming for a condition to appear in your current reality paradigm, the more apt the quantum consciousness of those minds are to find that timeline – or if you wish – create that time line. As a matter of fact, you can aptly take the emotional temperature of your current timeline by watching this play out in the shifts that do occur in mainstream consciousness. It will show you what the mainstream World Consensus is currently doing. And if the one you are in is lagging behind, you might want to go find one where the world consensus more closely matches what you desire.

This doesn’t mean that all those other yous stop being, it just means this here-and-now-you chooses something different. In the multiverse view of things, if this you is aware enough to actually solve this situation and know how to find your optimal reality, in one of those ‘Ah Ha’ EPR moments you will share it with the rest of yourselves instantaneously. But one of yous needs to solve it first!

So, as to those STILL missing shoes, maybe they need to stay missing, get my drift? (however, I still want to complain…)

*extra reading: Cynthia Larson

Skynet became self-aware on Dec 28, 2016……..

Author: Alison Bell |
Posted: January 9, 2017, 3:18 pm |

The mind-blowing AI announcement from Google that you probably missed.

…And then in September Google gave their translation tool a new engine: the Google Neural Machine Translation system (GNMT). The new engine comes fully loaded with all the hot 2016 buzzwords, like neural network and machine learning. The short version is that Google Translate got smart. It developed the ability to learn from the people who used it. It learnt how to make educated guesses about the content, tone and meaning of phrases based on the context of other words and phrases around them. And — here’s the bit that should make your brain explode — it got creative.

Google Translate invented its own language to help it translate more effectively From <https:[email protected][email protected]issed-2ffd31334805

Holy…. Our language is the encoding of reality…

https://alsionsbells.wordpress.com/2016/11/17/language-is-the-metaphor-for-time-change-the-language-change-time/ So sky net may not have to do any boots on the ground to accomplish what it did in the movie, all it would have to do is subtly change our language to create reality structure that we would be trapped in, if that isn’t the case already.

Which IMO, already has. Note this one reply to the above article by a very intelligent human, on the subject, and that he at the very end says exactly that – The robots have already taken over 😉

You requested someone with a degree in this? *Holds up hand*

So there are two main schools of Artificial Intelligence — Symbolic and non-symbolic.

Symbolic says the best way to make AI is to make an expert AI — e.g. if you want a doctor AI, you feed it medical text books and it answers questions by looking it up in the text book.

Non-symbolic says the best way to make AI is to decide that computers are better at understanding in computer, so give the information to the AI and let it turn that in to something it understands.

As a bit of an apt aside — consider the Chinese room thought experiment. Imagine you put someone in a room with shelves full of books. The books are filled with symbols and look up tables and the person inside is told “You will be given a sheet of paper with symbols on. Use the books in the room to look up the symbols to write in reply.” Then a person outside the room posts messages in to the room in Mandarin and gets messages back in Mandarin. The person inside the room doesn’t understand Mandarin, the knowledge is all in the books, but to the person outside the room it looks like they understand Mandarin.

That is how symbolic AI works. It has no innate knowledge of the subject mater, it just follows instructions. Even if some if those instructions are to update the books.

Non-symbolic AI says that it’d be better if the AI wrote the books itself. So looking back at the Chinese Room, this is like teaching the person in the room Mandarin, and the books are their study notes. The trouble is, teaching someone Mandarin takes time and effort as we’re starting with a blank slate here.

But consider that it takes decades to teach a child their first language, yet it takes only a little more effort to teach them a second language. So back to the AI — once we teach it one language, we want it to be like the child. We want it to be easy for it to learn a second language.

This is where Artificial Neural Networks come in. These are our blank slate children. They’re made up of three parts: Inputs, neurones, outputs. The neurones are where the magic happens — they’re modelled on brains. They’re a blob of neurones that can connect up to one another or cut links so they can join one bit of the brain up to another and let a signal go from one place to another. This is what joins the input up to the output. And in the pavlovian way, when something good happens, the brain remembers by strengthening the link between neurones. But just like a baby, these start out pretty much random so all you get out is baby babble. But we don’t want baby babble, we have to teach it how to get from dog to chien, not dog to goobababaa.

When teaching the ANN, you give it an input, and if the output is wrong, give it a tap on the nose and the neurones remember “whatever we just did was wrong, don’t do it again” by decreasing the value it has on the links between the neurones that led to the wrong answer and of it gets it right, give it a rub on the head and it does the opposite, it increases the numbers, meaning it’ll be more likely to take that path next time. This means that over time, it’ll join up the input Dog to the output Chien.

So how does this explain the article?

Well. ANNs work in both directions, we can give it outputs and it’ll give us back inputs by following the path of neurones back in the opposite direction. So by teaching it Dog means Chien, it also knows Chien could mean Dog. That also means we can teach it that Perro means Dog when we’re speaking Spanish. So when we teach it, the fastest way for it to go from Perro to Dog is to follow the same path that took Chien to Dog. Meaning over time it will pull the neurones linking Chien and Dog closer to Perro as well, which links Perro to Chien as well.

This three way link in the middle of Perro, Dog and Chien is the language the google AI is creating for itself.

Backing up a bit to our imaginary child learning a new language, when they learn their first language (e.g. English), they don’t write an English dictionary in their head, they hear the words and map them to an idea that the words represent. This is why people frequently misquote films, they remember what the quote meant, not what the words were. So when the child learns a second language, they hear Chien as being French, but map it to the idea of dog. Then when they hear Perro they hear it as Spanish but map that to the idea of dog too. This means the child only has to learn about the idea of a dog once, but can then link that idea up to many languages or synonyms for dog. And this is what the Google AI is doing. Instead of thinking if dog=chien, and chien=perro, perro must = dog, it thinks dog=0x3b chien =0x3b perro=0x3b. Where 0x3b is the idea of dog, meaning it can then turn 0x3b in to whichever language you ask for.

Tl;Dr: It wasn’t big news because Artificial Neural Networks have been doing this since they were invented in the 40s. And the entire non-symbolic branch of AI is all about having computers invent their own language to understand and learn things.

P.S. It really is smart enough to warrant that excitement! Most people have no idea how much they rely on AI. From the relatively simple AI that runs their washing machine, to the AI that reads the address hand written on mail and then figures out the best way to deliver it. These are real everyday machines making decisions for us. Even your computer mouse has AI in it to determine what you wanted to point at rather than what you actually pointed at (on a 1080p screen, there are 2 million points you could click on, it’s not by accident that it’s pretty easy to pick the correct one). Mobile phones constantly run AI to decide which phone tower to connect to, while the backbone of the internet is a huge interconnected AI deciding the fastest way to get data from one computer to another. Thinking, decision making AI is in our hands, beneath our feet, in our cars and almost every electronic device we have.

The robots have already taken over 😉

Skynet… like a whole bunch of other stuff, happened while we were a sleep and distracted – in some other reality, in a galaxy far, far, away…

Are we binary beings or trinary beings? (first clue, this is a 3D world)

Author: Alison Bell |
Posted: January 5, 2017, 1:41 pm |

Are we a simulation in the mind of God, or a simulation in a great big alien computer? What can I say about hidden in plain sight? Or a part of the equation never considered, hidden inside of our selves that we are so afraid to look at, that now we have become infinitely trick able in the modern world thought paradigm…

Thursday, January 5, 2017

7:28 AM


This article goes through a very well thought out process of comparing two hypothesis and does an excellent job of it. However…

Were we to examine as in the above article all the similarities between the two, they both do the same things, the elements act the same way, and from our view point are the same. However, I would posit that we have lost something over the vast space of time that this current version of man has walked this current version of the earth, and that is being in touch with our insides/intuition/inner knowing.

What we really have in the above article is a binary version, an either or, and I would say that the answer lies in a trinary field of thought. Not the either-or. Thusly, what no one takes into account is the inner perspective. The human knowingness that arises from inside ourselves, that third aspect of creation, the heart/mind of the person itself. The direct experience! Especially when the one component that is missing in each of the above arguments is the inner perception/intelligence of the person. Let me ask – why is no one taking this into account and why doesn’t it count?

Part of the quantum box – the entangled matrix we are caught in is this web of lies we all try to navigate as our reality and that we have been thoroughly taught to discount our inner selves and our own inner perceptive abilities. I would say that all observations are incorrect due to the lack of a final piece of data – our own intuitional perceptional fact gathering responses. Further, the entire planet has been taught to dis-avow, malign and laugh at all the information from this perception system that is a very valid fact gathering system on its own. We have been taught binary – either or reasoning: pos-neg, light-dark, yes or no – 0’s or 1’s….binary reasoning. The fallacy here is that we are trinary beings NOT binary. Body-emotion-mind, heart-soul-spirit, right-middle-left. We keep forgetting this. Or we have been trained that it is a fallacy; well, it isn’t. And we and our twisted thinking will discover nothing about the universe and what it is or how it works as long as we ignore a piece of the data, especially that piece!

Here is the point and one of the nine veils, IMO;  we have been shoved into a 2 dimensional box when we are a 3dimensional being. Why? Because there is no way to control our intuition. Therefore it has been made a sin, a crime and is a major sign of mental instability to have and use your intuitive perception because ‘they’ would not be able to manipulate our reality if we all listened to our heart/minds (inside), so we have been trained to discount and ignore it, and in every scientific pursuit out there, to be caught utilizing that part of the data will get you immediately discredited and fired.

This is what needs to be changed. Because were we to add that piece of the data to the equation, we would find the truth. Truth…remember that – the thing that rings ‘true’ where??? Inside. Truth and the recognition of it is on the…. wait-a-minit… where?????


End of story – and probably his-story…. If you get my drift.

Jan 1st Addendum – high strangeness

Author: Alison Bell |
Posted: January 4, 2017, 4:15 pm |

Jan 1st Addendum – high strangeness

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

10:52 AM

I am watching a video by Harold Kautz Vella in , but of course, black goo and the difference tween bi-nary and tri-nary intelligence. One of the things he talks about is the ability of trinary centered consciousness interfering with binary systems. While I was watching this and being really fired up because it was ringing so damned true inside – resonating to my current level of understanding of things, my computer started to really drive me crazy.

I have a blue tooth mouse and for some reason the mouse pointer started jumping all over the page, starting and stopping the video, going from full screen to reducing the entire page to an icon, and switching between videos… Now last week I had had some problems with my blue tooth speakers – and I didn’t know if it was the place in the house I was in, or if it was too many things running at once, but it eventually cleared up. So, this morning I took the blue tooth plug out of the computer to stop the mouse, and it continued to happen. I finally shut down the computer and used my phone.

Here is what Harold says, our natural frequency is TRINARY, not binary. The heart component – your heart/empathy/loving IS the third component that makes up our trinary wave. We emit light corresponding to this frequency. It is naturally more powerful than a scalar/binary wave, and will over power it always. So, Chalk one piece of evidence up for phase three of the experiment – collective objective evidence. Huh. Another interesting tidbit here – when I went to look on my computer at my You Tube history to pick up the link to this video to share with you all – It was gone. I had to go get it off my phone and email to myself to find this video again.

This is getting amazingly interesting!

I am smiling.

The Lie about the lie which is the lie…

Author: Alison Bell |
Posted: January 2, 2017, 9:05 pm |

If we start out asssss -you-ming that the “lie” began – then it’s got to be in about the 5th or 6th generation of the first lie – which means that we have been lied to about the lie with a lie that was covered up by a lie and lied to about the cover up….


As we start waking up to this and the depth of the deception, it can make you breathless. Let’s assume again (and I have heard this before and agree with it) that the plan to deceive and control us began before the flood (maybe even further back having its roots on a solar system war) but even as late as the flood will work for this example. We have only legend. That legend says the flood was done on purpose. After the flood the rebuild happened – this time, however, only certain people were left with the facts. As time went on people who managed to piece the history together were the ones who wound up saving that knowledge for themselves and hiding it from the rest of us. People would have cared if they could have, were they not in a desperate fight for survival. What could have been just as easily shared was not for purposes of power mongering,… any way, it happened a LONG TIME AGO.

It has only been since the 19th century that we have been able to trade information fast enough to be able to begin to piece it together. However, I would like to point out that a program that old must have had a contingency for just this level of development and it has been planned for – I don’t think anything we think is an uncovering, is a real uncovering… that a lie has been placed just to be revealed as the truth… and that ALL of the old stuff has been engineered to lead us astray in our thinking.

It reminds me of the nine veils we have to get through – the veils are the lies – but once you do, you realize that there are graduations of those veils in circles out ward like this diagram – so each veil has a system of lies covered up with lies that are lied about… Yes I know you have read them before – but here they are again for your edification – and as an illustration of how many layers deep this all is.-

The first veil: Ten percent of us will pierce the first veil and find the world of politics. We will vote, become active and develop an opinion. Our opinions will be shaped by the physical world around us; we will have been “conditioned” from our days in public education to accept that government officials, network media personalities and other “experts” are the primary voices of authority. Ninety percent of the people in this group will live and die without having pierced the third veil.

The second veil: Ten percent of us will also pierce the second veil to explore the world of history, the relationship between man and government and the meaning of self-government through constitutional and common law. Ninety percent of the people in this group will live and die without having pierced the third veil.

The third veil: Ten percent of those who pierce the second veil, will eventually pierce the third veil to conclusively find that the resources of the world, including people, are controlled by extremely wealthy and powerful families whose incorporated old world assets have, with modern extortion strategies, become the foundation upon which the entire world´s economy is currently indebted. Ninety percent of the people in this group will live and die without having pierced the fourth veil.

The fourth veil: Ten percent will then pierce the fourth veil to discover the Illuminati, Freemasonry, and the other secret societies. These societies use symbols and perform ceremonies that perpetuate the generational transfers of arcane knowledge that is used to keep the ordinary people in political, economic and spiritual bondage to the oldest bloodlines on earth. Ninety percent of the people in this group will live and die without having pierced the fifth veil.

The fifth veil: Ten percent will progress to pierce the fifth veil to learn that the secret societies are so far advanced technologically that time travel and interstellar communications have no boundaries and controlling the very thoughts and even the very actions of people is what their members do as offhandedly as we tell our children when they must go to bed. As in the days of Noah, this technology is even creating synthetic life forms, as man seeks to displace God. Ninety percent of the people in this group will live and die without having pierced the sixth veil.

The sixth veil: Ten percent will progress to pierce the sixth veil where we learn the dragons and lizards and aliens we thought were the fictional monsters of childhood literature are real indeed and are in reality the actual controlling forces behind the secret societies uncovered in the fourth veil. Ninety percent of the people in this group will live and die without piercing the seventh veil.

The seventh veil: Ten Percent will progress to pierce the 7th veil where the incredible world of fractal geometry and the universal law of numbers will be fully understood and embraced. The creative force of the entire universe will be shown to be linked to numerical code formulas and sequences, and all “mysteries” including the very fabric of time, space, parallel universes, and access therein is unlocked. Those whose intellects allow them to pierce the seventh veil often succumb to the lure and promise of massive wealth offered by the ruling elite, and thus over ninety percent of the people in this group will live and die without piercing the eighth veil.

The eighth veil: Piercing the eighth veil reveals God and the pure energy known as LOVE that is the pure life force in all living things – which are one and the same. Deep-seated Humility is needed in order to ever pierce this veil.

The ninth veil: Piercing the ninth veil means perfecting the pure energy known as love and thereby becoming truly one with God and His formulations. By perfecting this pure energy, one then fully embraces charity and therein gains full understanding of the universal plan of sacrifice, death, and redemption; life itself then becomes complete and one truly comes full circle and looks at the world through the eyes of an innocent child, yet with the deepest wisdom born of pure LOVE from the eighth veil.

Consider this: If this theory is correct, there are only about 60,000 people on the planet who have successfully pierced the sixth veil. The irony here is too incredible: Those who are stuck behind veils one through five have little choice but to view the people who have pierced the veils beyond them as dangerously insane. With each veil pierced, exponentially shrinking numbers of increasingly enlightened people are deemed insane by exponentially increasing masses of decreasingly enlightened people.

Adding to the irony, the harder a “sixth or better veiler” tries to explain what he is able to see to those who can´t, the more insane he appears to them. This truth is self-evident. Moreover, institutions such as the venerable “Southern Poverty Law Center” are formed and financed by the ruling elite to effectively label many such awakened individuals “hate-mongers” and “terrorists”. From <http://sitsshow.blogspot.com/2016/11/Understanding-the-Nine-Veils-Preparing-for-Full-Disclosure-From-Within.html>

That is old theory, ancient history – still correct I might add – then there is just today: we have been lied to about all of this – it is just one part of it.

  • 22 genetic experiments going on by various ET races
  • AI invasion and reptilian takeover
  • Gov’t
  • Schools
  • Food
  • Pharma
  • Chemtrails
  • Vaccinations
  • Media
  • Internet
  • Computers
  • Smart dust
  • Cellphones
  • Black goo
  • implants
  • BMMSS: the Babylonian Money Magic Slavery System (money)

It makes me want to turn my back on the whole mess and walk away, but that would solve nothing and put me in the perfect place to just get tangled up in yet another lie about something else….


When everything is a lie and nothing is real whether we like it or not we grieve. We grieve what we thought we had, what we were planning to create, who we are, what we wanted to become, our spiritualty… all of it – everything, because it has died, nay, it never was. Emotionally there are stages to full realization and acceptance. Elizabeth Kubler Ross enumerated them to help people. They are:

  • denial
  • anger
  • bargaining
  • depression
  • acceptance

They are a part of the framework that makes up our learning to live with what have we lost. They are tools to help us frame and identify what we may be feeling. In 2017 the next step is to work this – and maybe create a framework for the truth?

And, by the way – just what is truth, anyway??


2017 Plan…

Author: Alison Bell |
Posted: January 1, 2017, 8:23 pm |

Of course, what I would want to do is alter my reality. 2017 is the year when we will be able to begin to experiment. Because I awoke with two very clear realizations in my consciousness it will be my focus for this coming year. Everybody is talking about this, and while I was only paying ‘side’ attention to it all – my subconscious delivered a very clear message this morning. And…. It appeared without asking. That is always worth a very concerted notice. So below, find my action plan… I shall see how well this works as the year carries on.

I woke up to a very clear profound realization that we ARE living in a construct, and therefor it should be possible to control it and manipulate it much easier than we currently are. So I decided to test this hypothesis, conduct a few experiments and collect objective evidence.

A. Experiments: affect your reality

  1. Change how things/events behave (not people)
  2. Change myself
  3. NO infringement on other’s freewill

B. Evidence:

  1. That the phone I am using has been acting oddly. For the past week, unless my attention is on it, it doesn’t register any notifications, and it is only when I think of it, that it downloads them in a machine gun fashion, like bullet strafing. If it is in my hand and I am engaged with it, they will down load as they come in. Very odd. This morning as I reached consciousness I could hear it going rat-tat-tat-tat from the other room.
  2. All my life, the more I use a machine say like a vacuum cleaner, the better it works – they develop a personality just from continued use – just like your car. I even had a vacuum cleaner that hated me, seriously. Funny stories there.
  3. Last post; missing items including my freaking shoes!!

C. Supposition:

  1. If the above is true, then I should be able to instigate my own ascension from inside without waiting for an external event to trigger it – because the external world is only a construct and the only true thing is the inner world.
  2. I should be able to actually perceive the construct with greater clarity by effecting a change of perspective:

Which would make Dolores Cannon’s theory true that all we see outside of ourselves is simple fractalized pieces of our selves – making it weird – because I like people and I like having fun with them – and the fear here is: if I realize that it is only me – it will be very lonely – so therefore it is highly necessary to not digest that fact…. Lols, which keeps me from progressing, because it is one of the prime ideas in ascension technology.

  1. At least I should be able to change my own ability scope because I want to – which possibly could include much clearer communication with the world around me.
  2. I should be able to change things with a thought
  3. I should be able to change the way my body works with a thought, because I want to
  4. I should be able to sus-out my current position and circumstance enough to change it – i.e.: why am I here in the now
  5. Reality is far more malleable than anyone thinks it is.

Now, on to playing with this idea.


Then there is that pesky little clause that follows all of this: what ever happens to you, you are responsible for creating it…. Will my foot make it all the way up to my ass?

The Ma(e)ndel(l)a Effect: where are my shoes?

Author: Alison Bell |
Posted: December 29, 2016, 5:40 pm |

If, as Laurie McDonald says, that whomever is playing with our reality is doing it to make us more doubtful about what we remember and thereby opening up our subconscious mind to be more suggestable, is true, then it’s been going on far, far, longer that just the last five years.

I encountered this idea back in the 1980’s. And really, if I track the perception that the-‘world’-feels-different, I can track it back far longer than that, because I can remember that feeling from back in the 1960’s.

When it really became obvious to me was in 1980. I had my first child then. I would intentionally drag myself out of bed early to have an hour for coffee and just be all alone for my sanity’s sake. I also journaled every morning back then. I began noticing about every 8-9 months apart a weirdness – that felt like I moved somewhere, very similar, but different – and I noticed it because the people around me were different. (not things). They would behave very subtly out of character. I am an empath. I notice these things. I can feel where you are emotionally and I developed this along with the ‘fine art of ducking’ because of my childhood. It’s a form of radar that is always on in my awareness, always. So when I say it was different – people were different, not things. (cue Twilight Zone sound bit..) There is resonant awareness that you wake up into that feels a certain way each morning. It usually feels the same way – familiar, except when you wake up and it doesn’t… then you notice something is off…

As the 90’s came along it began to happen more frequently such that I began to notice the ‘difference’ in the general resonance that comprised the way the world felt.  Some days it was really beautiful, others, not so much, but then I began noticing things in the world – information – hard stuff – began to change also. By the time 2,000 rolled around, it was happening a lot. I hadn’t heard anybody else talking about it, and I just hoped that where I wound up when I awakened each morning would be safe and ok. It seemed to be. All the same people I knew and loved always showed up – so, I just decided to take it as it came for the lessons it provided my soul.

About this time I noticed other people talking about the more organic form of this, but along with that, came the inorganic, hard changes like the current Mandel(l)a effect description. And really, I just didn’t have the time to care, I had two teenagers to run after…

Now, I have always had things go missing in my life, and then pop back up in the same spot I thought I had left them, even other people noticed they were missing. I thought that the people in my life were doing it on purpose to mess with me. (ha-ha lets drive mom nuts today…) I found out that if I went around the house using sound to call to the item that went missing, that it would show up much quicker than if I didn’t call its name while looking. I even taught my kids this technique and it worked every time. (Yeah, if you lived in my house it was pretty strange…) This worked like a charm for at least 15 years.

But now, in the last two-three years, things have started to disappear and not come back, or have turned up months later. I KNOW I didn’t lose them, or move them, or change them… Recently its happened with two really nice pairs of shoes. Comfy flats that I wore all summer and was quite fond of. A couple of days ago it was warm enough to wear them so I went to put a pair on, and they were both gone. Trust me when I say I looked everywhere: even the dumb places, after I’d looked in all the logical places, after I’d called to the shoes… They are still missing. I am pissed.

The dogs didn’t eat them, my husband swears he didn’t throw them out and is irritated that I’d ask if he did, they are not under furniture, in closets, under beds, in drawers or cars, they sure as hell are not where I keep all my shoes, they are just gone.

I think missing items in my reality like shoes (damnit) is because of the organic/inorganic messing around with time lines. It’s not very nice to screw with old folk. We have a hard-enough time with reality as it is. But Laurie is right, she says that ‘When you are feeling weird or unsure about something THAT is when it is changing!’ So if this is an effort to create self-doubt in all of us, that’s all fine and dandy; just leave my freaking favorite shoes OUT OF IT!!

And what does it mean when your personal life is involved in all this? Does that make it the organic or inorganic kind? Or, has the time line changing gone so deep now that things are beginning to just melt away before our eyes like they never existed in the first place? Here is a thought, those shoes left my direct reality of everyday use when the weather changed and I switched to boots; I FORGOT ABOUT THEM – is that how they slipped away? Will we all wake up one morning in a hyperspace that changes before our eyes with every thought? I wonder if we could use this some way to say like, melt wrinkles off our faces and knee caps, or to melt pounds off our collective asses, or maybe reverse age ourselves? Just how malleable is reality going to get here? I want to know so I can pre-dream my own.

I mean, Really….


Author: Alison Bell |
Posted: December 27, 2016, 7:23 pm |

This season from Thanksgiving through now till four days before this new year, has been a struggle for us to assimilate / integrate information energetically and mentally coming to us. Integration is a key word here. In essence we need to ground this charge of informational energy through our bodies.



expressing the situation of something that is or appears to be enclosed or surrounded by something else. (in this instance the movement of charge into our physicality)


the visible shape or configuration of something. (our form – the body)


(forming nouns) denoting an action or an instance of it. (the action the top two create)  From <https://www.google.com/?gws_rd=ssl>

– In other words, the embodiment of that energetic information – to bring it in to our minds and psyche and integrate it in our bodies. Recently, due to overload, it seems to me that it is either getting stuck in the physical, or the emotional components of our system.

It is well known that the body has its own intelligence. That those millions of cells and systems, subsystems, bacteria and viruses all work in concert to create the walking, talking, living you. This intelligence can also get confused and need to integrate all the ‘new’ things that you are currently immersed in from energy to information of all types. (Just as we are the millions of tiny cells and subsystems of Gaia’s body – we are processing for her too – she is having her problems – weather and quakes in response to the sun’s energy.) Every time you put anything into your system, by watching, reading, learning, experience, you are changing your vibrational frequency. Some of the information coming into the earth realm at this time is quite new – and most of us are not even aware that we are processing it. But, the body is. That is what the ascension symptoms are all about. When you work to ground that energy through your body by moving, dancing, doing anything physical that gives the body a chance to “move” that new information/energy through its systems, it allows for it to be integrated into your entire system from your body all the way up into the higher self… (think chakras as information systems in this analogy)

Have you ever just, for no reason, realized that you know something new, but you’re not quite sure how you know it? This is when information integrates into the energetic systems of your body. Vice versa, when you have a ton of new information coming in like now, with this new wave of energy that started around Thanksgiving and has been accelerating since, our bodies may have an extremely hard time integrating it.

We can know a thing in our heads, but to really know a thing it needs to be actualized in the body. ( you can have the taste of chocolate described to you, but until you actually eat chocolate, you only have an approximation of the experience in your head) Usually this happens with an experience, but it can be that the information comes so fast, that it needs to be very consciously moved through the body with dance, rhythm, or movement. When we are hurt physically or emotionally it is common to rock back and forth to allow the energy of pain a way through the physical. We do this without even thinking about it.

When we receive informational downloads there is also the possibility that the emotional reaction to that information can stop it before it gets into the physical because we reject it in some way. The body is one big symbol for ourselves and when we do not allow informational processing through the body it winds creating an energy blockage that over time will create physical pain.

This season is a simple precursor to what I think will only become an accelerating process. So, while it is good to sit in meditation for the mind and soul, the body needs to dance, the spine needs to wave and the feelings need to be released from the cell tissue by movement. This is why yoga and Tai Chi are known as meditation in movement.

So I guess this means have some fun, dance, process and move – just like the rest of the universe in it eternal rhythm.


Author: Alison Bell |
Posted: December 20, 2016, 7:23 pm |

Where is our folksoul? The one that is this earth inside our hearts? Where has it gone? The one who vibrates with Gaia’s thoughts? The one who heeds her calling and shows up? The one that was aware of every nuance of her song? The one that felt a river of love that never diminished, the one that knew Gaia’s language, her heartsong?

We have lost our deep legends, our inner story that was once our truth. We didn’t know that we were losing it. It happened so slowly. That frog in a can thing all over again. Slowly, slowly so we didn’t notice the veils that slipped in between us and our souls. Slowly, slowly so that one day, if we could even remember it enough to notice that it was gone, it was too late. Unless. Unless you went expeditioning deep inside your soul hunting for it. But that is like chasing the smell of chocolate wafting in from some foreign land across a great ocean… Looking for the unseen, the non-materialized, the intentionally hidden and obfustigated.

That Folksoul, a term coined by Cara St. Louis, has all but died in us. That part of us that was just hooked in and knowing. Once it rested comfortably in our bellies. It told us about the weather, events, our health, everything that went on in our lives. It also held the story – history and herstory. The story of ancient times that resonated in our bones and our DNA. The story we can’t even hear today because of all of the interference in its way.

Today we are captive to a system that has so many convoluted layers that we are blind. Given many names, like the 9 veils, levels of enlightenment, anything outside of ourselves that we must attain by somebody else’s judgment… These layers control every aspect of our being, our food, our air, our health, our history, our families, our money, our beliefs, our ‘entertainment’ (and I use that term loosely). There isn’t one moment of one day and night that we are not corralled and controlled.

And it’s not enough to just know them, the veils, each one is so embedded and twisted that it takes time to understand it. And with each veil that comes down the enormity of what is actually going on is enough to make even the bravest, most stout-hearted person want to cover their head with a pillow and yell, “ENOUGH!!!”

It’s an entire ride. A frequency soup. Like turning up the stereo so loud you feel it in your bones. But the more you know, the more you can do – and it gets easier as you go along, until one day, you just… turn the song off.

Me, I’m hunting the smell of chocolates…..